What I Hated the Least Today 260/365: The Lexaurin Effect

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Pills. Also, here’s the bloody tin foil I was looking for the other day!

I was doing more poorly than usual today, mental-health-wise. I took measures accordingly. First, against my better reasonable judgement, I took a day off. I am workoholic and I feel shitty, as in guilty, when I don’t work. Second, I did my usual natural anti-anxiety techniques: yoga, meditation and breathing exercises, relaxation music. Didn’t work well this time.

It wasn’t as much anxiety itself as the psychosomatic pain that accompanies it that bothered me most. My shoulder and neck were killing me. So, the last resort: I look Lexaurin. I only do this once or twice a month. It’s an addictive first-and-last-aid pill from the benzodiazepine family. You don’t want to overdo it with it.

The Lexaurin effect is funny:

  • After 5 mins:  Fuck, it’s not working, when will it work, I knew it, I’m getting addicted to it, and now it doesn’t work anymore, bloody hell.
  • After 15 mins: Hmm. The pain is actually better. So nice. It’s weird that I’m still shaking though, but okay, I take the deal.
  • After 30 mins. Aww. So fuzzy and warm and soft and mellow and slightly unreal. I mean, I feel no pain whatsoever. How awesome is it? I just want to lie down, dissolve and die from happiness.

Also, don’t mind me. I’m typing this intoxicated (after 2 hours from Lexaurin). And, since it’s my day off, I’m spending it blogging. Sorry about the flood of shitty posts. Oh, and sorry about the language.

 

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20 comments on “What I Hated the Least Today 260/365: The Lexaurin Effect”

  1. So long as it works as you’d be hoping for when its a last resort sort of drug….so I hope the day off has settled well with you…..I know when I was sick a week or so ago the thought of writing anything was only making me feel worse so having time off sat with me ok…..maybe tomorrow work will appear more appealing to you.

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  2. I’ve been enjoying your flood of shitty posts very much Mara! And that pill? You gotta do what must to keep yourself going. If it does the job, go for it!

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  3. A few years ago, when I was still working, I was also suffering from severe shoulder and neck pain, that also affected my jaw and ability to chew. I went to a physiotherapist at the time because I was partially covered. I was evaluated and told that it had to do with my posture and she told me how to pracise sitting staight. It worked. Hope you get better soon, Mara.

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    1. I’m sorry to hear that, but good that you found the cause and cure! Bad posture brings about all kinds of pain. In my case, it’s not posture, it’s psychosomatic, as has transpired from physical examinations. Apparently, I’m perfectly healthy, just too anxious and neurotic. Well, it’s not like I’m going to die of it 🙂

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    1. It’s a cheap and good quality high: take one Lexaurin, mix it with one shot and you’re wasted. No, seriously, it’s for acute anxiety, so if you’re not particularly anxious, it would probably just put you to sleep.

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